From the Crowd to the Self: My Journey of Transformation

Eight years ago, I would have laughed at the person I am today. Back then, I knew root canals were bad news, but I believed that vaccines were safe and effective. If you had met me then, you would have met a very different person — someone who wanted to belong, someone who lived by the crowd’s beliefs and never questioned too deeply.

If you had told me that eight years later I would be called an “anti-vaxxer,” I would have dismissed you outright. And yet, here I am.

A few years before the pandemic, my life changed. I was thrust into what I now call the crash course in consciousness. At this time, I discovered holistic and alternative healing modalities and just how effective they could be. I came to understand the importance of the energy body, the mind-body connection — how deeply our thoughts, beliefs, and energy shape our health.

I even gained firsthand experience in scientific studies, having participated in conducting a placebo double-blind control study myself — yes, the same kind of patches celebrities are now seen wearing(see picture below)

This experience taught me not only about how Gold Standard Scientific studies run(which would help me understand the scam that was the COVID-19 ‘vaccine’), but about the deeper layers of belief, expectation, and intention that modern science often overlooks.

I wasn’t perfect. I still used sunscreen. I still vaccinated my pets. I still fed my cat kibble and commercial wet food. I still wore sunglasses, even though I hated them. But the foundation had been laid. The seeds had been planted for the person I was becoming.

First Vaccine Debate
During that time, I was part of a Facebook group called Energy Medicine Exchange. That’s where I found myself pulled into my first vaccine debate. I argued in favor of polio vaccinations, even bringing up a story from my own family — how a distant relative had been paralyzed by polio.

It would take me another eight years to realize the truth: that this relative had, in fact, become paralyzed because of the polio vaccine itself. That realization was one of many that slowly unraveled the fabric of what I thought I knew.

The rude awakening came when I watched my father’s leg slowly become paralysed after his third Covid shot. We went from hospital to hospital, from specialist to specialist, and each time we were given a different diagnosis—ranging from stroke to autoimmune vasculitis. Yet throughout all of this, the word “paralysis” was never once uttered by any of these medical professionals. And all I could think, over and over again, was: why is my dad’s leg paralysed? Because that’s exactly what it was - paralysis. The adage ‘Death starts in the Leg’ rang in my head like a gong.

My story is not unique. It is the story of anyone who once loved the crowd, who wanted to be accepted by the crowd, who believed what the crowd believed. And it is also the story of breaking free from that crowd — of becoming a sovereign individual.

Beliefs can and do change. When new knowledge comes in, it reshapes everything. There is no shame in admitting that we once held beliefs that later proved to be incorrect. Those beliefs were part of our programming. They were part of Maaya.

Many people believe that Maaya means the world itself is an illusion. That’s not quite true. Maaya is not the world is illusion — Maaya means that our perception of the world is an illusion. And that perception, conditioned and distorted by upbringing, culture, and crowd-thinking, is the real illusion, the real Maaya(or the Matrix)

To awaken from Maya is not to deny the world, but to see it with new eyes, free from programming.

Looking back, I am grateful. Grateful to whatever forces acted within me, grateful to the will to life and the will to meaning that guided me, and grateful to my own choices and decisions that shaped the person I am proud of today.

I am glad to be individuating, to be carving my own path rather than clinging to the crowd. Because ultimately, I believe that’s one of the main purposes we are here for.

This is my journey — from the crowd to the self.

Back in 2018, when I was still a a pro-vaxxer. A picture with my colleagues Dr Thornton, Alex, Shesh, Mohan, Malia and Matt at Artjuna, Goa.